My 2022 Year In Review
2022 Year in Review
As I approach my 62nd year, I am thinking of things I’ve learned over the past 365 days. It’s what we do, right? We reflect. So, what has touched my soul? What has hurt my heart? What lessons have brought me closer to being my authentic self? (And for the love of all that’s holy, how do I change the notification sounds on my phone?)
My soul has been touched by what felt like the near loss of it. A dark night of the soul as it’s often called, has helped me appreciate those tender gifts of mercy and grace when I’m given a glimpse of the depth of faith that I carry within. My faith has sustained me practically my entire life. It does not fall inside party lines, religious lines, or any other lines. It is a conglomeration of so many facets of Mother and Father, Son and Magdalene and columns of saints galore. It encompasses the earth and her many creatures. My faith embraces friendships, relationships, and hardships. It is everything all the time.
This faith is my own, it sustains me and I grow from it every day. It doesn’t matter if anyone else approves, it works for my soul. My heart and soul are devoted to the most divine force and all that branches out from it. I have a devotion to the Blessed Mother and Mary Magdalene. I am a firm believer that the dead are ready and willing to walk this road of life with us if we would only pay attention.
My heart has been hurt by the reluctant acceptance that I am too much for some, and not enough for others. I am keenly sensitive and have the ability to tap into what others feel and it is not always welcome. I know things that I don’t know how I know, and for some people it’s too much. I have a chronic condition that prevents me from doing many things and for some people, that’s not enough.
I discovered that my people-pleasing-problem stems, in part, from trying to be enough for some and less than enough for others. It’s a futile effort, I tell you, and a waste of time. I can’t be authentic if I’m altering parts of myself to suit anyone else. This is a lesson in progress.
I am beginning to feel the shift of growing older. What do I want to keep and what do I want to relinquish? What matters most?
I long ago learned that in certain things, I am consistently inconsistent. In case you haven’t noticed, my blog entries alone are proof of that.
Oh, as for those pesky notification sounds, I actually did figure them out and now I have Guns N’ Roses filling the airwaves whenever I get a phone call. Welcome to the jungle baby…
One of the things I want to do this coming year is participate more in my own blog. Seems simple but for some reason, it easily slips my mind. A beautiful friend gifted me a lovely journal that I’m going to use to help me stay focused and also give me room to remember to jot down what I would otherwise forget I want to talk about. (Did you get all that?)
Everyone has something to share, bits and nuggets of wisdom, humor and reflection. Perhaps I will go on a sort of wisdom scavenger hunt, not only within but “out there” too, and see what I can bring back here.
Stay tuned.
May the upcoming year be one that nourishes us all.